Catching up: CrossFit, YMe 5k, the BOB, Team NMA/RYBQ, and the (pending) move

It’s funny, in a way, because I’ve been staying at home with A now for almost a whole year (while sometimes working PT or being in grad school FT), and I think way back when, part of me thought that I’d find that I had tons and tons of time on my hands because that’s what stay-at-home moms have, right?  Lots of time. I could blog and blog and blog, and then blog and blog some more, among other things.

Good lord, how wrong I was.

Even though I completed my MA and my TESOL in March, and I ran my marathon in April, things have been non-stop ever since March between marathon training, finding a condo and then subsequently preparing for the move, running a marathon, starting Windy City CrossFit’s foundations class 3x/week for four weeks, joining the folks over at Team Run Your BQ/Team No Meat Athlete, and learning how to run with A’s newest urban assault vehicle ride, the BOB Revolution SE… among other things.

Honestly, I mean to blog nearly every night as I’m winding down for bed, but half the time I’m just ready to veg and not think anymore… especially after a full day of (insert many and varied activities here).

So, in an effort to shoot for brevity, I’ll do a quick catch-up, bullet-list style.

  1. CrossFit: I wrote about this in my last post, but it’s f-in awesome.  Tons of fun.  Like adult recess, basically.  I’m in week three of my four week program, and it might be in my head, but I swear I’m already stronger and harder/more toned (in parts) than I was on April 29th.  Here’s an interesting article I read about CrossFit and runners.
  2. YMe 5k: Perhaps closely related to #1, I ran YMe’s Race at My Pace 5k on Mother’s Day (my gift to myself) and knocked off 61 seconds from my time at the GNYER in Ohio on 12/31/11–making a PR in the process (20:31).  What’s interesting is that I’m only two weeks post-marathon.  Seriously, I think #1 had something to do with how I performed.  Naturally, I did some pre- and post-race vlogs over at my handy YouTube channel, so click here, here, and here to watch :)
  3. Running with a BOB: I’ll have to write a separate post about this (and about running post-pregnancy… I’ve been meaning to write that one for a while now), but it has been quite the learning experience, for sure.  Below is a pic of A and me in her Mazzerati stroller (although we weren’t running at the time).  I’ll come back to this post in the future.

    A and me rockin' out in the BOB on LSD (always in the Boston jacket!)

  4.  Team NMA/RYBQ: which means No-Meat Athlete and Run Your BQ (Boston Qualifier).  I think it’s technically Team RYBQ, but since I learned about it through the No-Meat Athlete website, I’m giving credit to both entities.  This has been really interesting so far because it’s basically an online community of runners who are trying to run their BQs and/or PRs, and it’s coached by Matt Frazier and Jason Fitzgerald.  I’ve been reading their articles and forums (and contributing to the latter), and I’m excited to try their plans come NYC and Houston training time.  I’ve never done a training plan or really, have been part of a training community, like this, so I’m looking forward to it.  It should be fun.
  5. The move: ah, yes, the move… my new hobby that has seemingly taken over lots of my days and nights when I’m not with A (and sometimes, even during).  I can’t tell you how sick I am of reading MLS listings.  Crossing my fingers here that if all goes well, in about three weeks’ time, I’ll be blogging from our new condo :)

Super short and quick tonight–well, at least a bit shorter than usual–but I’ll try to be better about blogging.  My next race is the Ragnar Madison-Chicago 200 mile relay, so that’ll be a good time and I’m sure will lend itself to a great post.

More to come!  Until then, onward and upward…

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Entering into the mix: CrossFit

I am a lousy cross-trainer… and especially these days, now that A is in my life, because if I have an hour to work out each day, then I’m gonna run.

I’m a runner.

Running is what I do.

Running is how I will become a better runner.

Faster.

Fitter.

More efficient.

(etc)

Unlike many other marathoners, I’ve been super lucky (if you want to call it that) in that I haven’t been sidelined with injury related to my mileage.  The worst I’ve had, which sucked, was IT band syndrome back in 2008, and that was how I found out that 50 mpw was about the maximum that my body at the time could handle.

At any rate, at the insistence of a friend, I decided to check-out CrossFit.  I started my foundations class last week at Windy City CrossFit, and basically, the foundations class is an hour, for 3 days a week, for four weeks.  It’s hard to describe– it’s like weightlifting meets interval work meets anaerobic fun meets jump roping meets IDK what else.

It’s basically like adult recess, and I love it so far.

I’ve got to figure out how to swing this and marathon training, especially once I begin training for NYC and Houston, but I’ve got time.  Until then, I’m enjoying learning about this new area of fitness and well-being and am meeting a ton of cool people in the process!

More to come…

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For the inquisitive minds

Saturday’s splits (miles 1-13 were with the pace group, then part of 24 was as well):

  1. 8:18
  2. 8:09
  3. 8:09
  4. 8:17
  5. 7:59
  6. 8:15
  7. 8:11
  8. 7:53
  9. 8:15
  10. 8:19
  11. 7:57
  12. 8:04
  13. 7:58
  14. 8:11
  15. 8:09
  16. 7:58
  17. 7:56
  18. 7:49
  19. 8:00
  20. 8:06
  21. 8:21
  22. 8:31
  23. 8:30
  24. 8:37
  25. 8:27
  26. 7:50
  27. .26 (according to my watch) 7:29 pace (for 1:55)

TOTAL: 26.26 miles, 3:34:03, 2,916 calories, 8:09 pace.

OFFICIAL: 26.2 miles, 3:34:05, 8:11 pace :)

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Illinois Marathon Race Report

It has been a long time coming, but alas, Illinois Marathon weekend has finally come–and gone.

I’ve already posted my pre- and post-race ruminations here and here on YouTube, in addition to sending out a quick little post-race blurb to immediate family and friends, so here I’ll dive in much further detail about my race and my experiences.  That said, if you want to Reader’s Digest (or Listener’s Digest, I guess…?) versions, check out the YT vids whose links are above.  If you want the play-by-play version, read on!

I wanted to run the IL Marathon on April 28 for a few reasons:

a) the fam was initially moving to California, and so I wanted to run in a part of IL I hadn’t yet seen,

b) it was economical, as far as marathons go (about $80 when I registered),

c) it had super-favorable reviews on marathonguide.com,

d) it was supposed to be pretty flat and fast, thus good for BQs and PRs, and

e) perhaps most significantly, A was due on 4/28/11, so it would be special for me to run my first full marathon post-pregnancy on my due date a year later (got that?).

Well, things changed, and even though the fam and I were no longer moving to CA, I had still committed to the race, and as far as my coach was concerned (Jack, my training partner and actual former running coach from Team in Training), my training and racing times from the winter indicated that I should have been able to hit a 3:35 or sub pretty handily.  Hell, he even surmised that I could do a 3:30.

The short version?  “Always trust your coach,” as he told me after the race.

3:34:05, not only a BQ under the new standards, but a PR by over three minutes.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! :) :) :) :) :)

The long version is that the Illinois Marathon is a runner’s race.  You don’t go to Urbana and Champaign, IL, to run the race for the throngs of fans, to take in the breathtaking architecture and cool neighborhoods of the cities, or to attend a kickin’ expo with a thousand vendors.  The race is primarily residential–meaning that about 95% of it is weaves through people’s neighborhoods–and while there are fans on the streets, it’s mostly the college kids and townspeople.  There were definitely areas in the second half of the race (in Champaign, I think) where there were few, if any, folks on the streets.  Despite that though, the fans and volunteers alike were great.  They all did a wonderful job of coordinating the aid stations that were typically pretty well-stocked with gatorade, water, and at some stations, gel, oranges, and bananas.  There really isn’t a whole lot to see in the towns except the college, and most of the race isn’t run at or near the college, anyway.  It’s like you’re running through your hometown.

The IL Marathon is a runner’s race because you go there to run and to see what your body will let you do on the relatively flat course.  Finishing on the 50-yard line of the stadium is pretty sweet, too; seeing yourself on the jumbotron never gets old, right?? :)

I drove down from Chicago mid-day on Friday and hit up the expo, talked with Rich, the 3:35 pacer, and picked up a pair of armwarmers (at Rich’s suggestion) since I was planning to run in a singlet and shorts on race day and the weather was calling for temps in the 40s with some rain and wind.  The expo was pretty nice, about the size of a high school gym, and it had the standard expo vendors, like other races, some charity teams, some local organizations, and of course, the official marathon gear.  Once I got my stuff, I went to my hotel (which was a bit on the dingy side… I haven’t stayed in a hotel where the hallways are on the outside of the building in a loooooooooooong time, but hey, that’s what I got for booking only four months ahead of time, I guess) and hung out for a bit before hitting up a local Italian place for the obligatory pre-marathon pasta dinner.  All was well, and before I went to bed, I did that pre-race YT vid and watched some bad TV (Friends re-runs, P90X infomercials, some crap on HBO) and talked to my mom and C before calling it a night.

The sign greeting us outside the starting area

Welcoming everyone to the expo at the ARC

In terms of pre-race sleep, I actually did pretty well and got almost eight hours of almost uninterrupted sleep.  Once I awoke at 4:30 though, thunderstorms greeted me, which made me very nervous.  Just as I had done for the entire week and days leading up to the race, I checked my weather app religiously (stalkingly?) to see what was supposed to happen from 7am on, and I was pretty sure that my first hour of the race I’d get soaked.

Wonderful.

After I pumped, had most of my pre-race meal (a bagel and a banana in my hotel, followed by another banana at the starting area, along with some water and gatorade), I grabbed my stuff, checked out of my hotel, and schlepped my personal effects down to the race starting area.  The time was inching nearer!

The morning of the race, my awesome runner buddies and I were texting and emailing back and forth, reminiscing on the funny happenings we all shared before our races together–like when Margaret almost forgot to cross Erin’s “E” on her arm, making her arm spell out “CRIN” instead of “ERIN” in permanent marker.  After about an hour of just sitting around, going to the bathroom a couple times, and finally deciding that it was time to go outside, I checked my bags, put on my armwarmers, my longsleeve T I was going to donate, and a utility-size trashbag I got from the hotel that I was wearing to stay warm, and proceeded to corral B, where I’d meet up with Pacer Rich and my new best friends in the 3:35 pace group.

As was to be expected, the 3:35 group was pretty large and almost exclusively female, thanks to that time being the new qualifying standard for Boston for women aged 18-34.  There were some halfers in the mix, but most of the folks in the group were women who were vying for their first BQs.  I kept mum mostly about my Boston experiences and told everyone that I was going for my PR today, and once the race began, the 50+ us in the throng all kept in tight with Pacer Rich, sharing stories about our marathoning experiences, travels, families, pretty much everything to pass the time.  Pacer Rich was a ton of fun–probably to be expected from a high school physics teacher, right?–and it was awesome to have him guiding us and constantly reminding us that we were all going to hit our BQs that day.

The weather ended up cooperating for us for the run, which was a huge bonus; by the time we began to run, the temps stayed pretty close to the mid-to-upper 40s, and the winds were around 15mph, mostly as headwinds, but manageable (and surely not much different than what you’d get from running on the lakefront).  By about seven miles into the run, I tucked my armwarmers into my shorts and ran the rest of the race in my singlet and shorts and felt totally comfortable.

About 13 miles in, I decided to move up from Pacer Rich because I was beginning to feel a bit claustrophobic and cramped with how many runners were right by him, and I figured as long as I was in his vicinity (or could at least hear him) that I was doing alright.  Once I broke free from him, I ran with a college student named Brooke from about mile 13-18, and along the way we picked up Matt, a Master’s student in Enviro Science.  The three of us were together for a long time and hooked up with Heather, Amanda, and another Brooke who had all also broken away from Pacer Rich (and who were all also vying for their first BQs), but we eventually passed them by about mile 16 or 17.

While the course is fast because of its relative lack of hills (or significant hills, anyway), it is definitely full of turns.  I remember looking at the map and thinking about how many turns we’d be cutting (which can sometimes make for a slower course), but I’m glad we had as many as we did because it kept things interesting.  There were a few places on the course where we’d run in and out of housing subdivisions or parks, so we’d see folks who were in front of or behind us (which can be discouraging or encouraging), but for the most part the curviness of the course prohibited knowing exactly where we stood in relation to everyone else.

In the days leading up to the race, I had been reading a ton of running articles, many about nutrition, and one in particular that I had read focused on carbo-loading and race-day nutrition.  It made me think of my Boston #2 experience, where I BQed for the fourth time and improved my previous Boston time by 7 minutes, because I felt like I was constantly eating during the race–gels, oranges, gatorade, pretty much anything people on the street gave me.  I credit my time that day due to how much food (read: calories, carbohydrates, sugar) I had consumed while running, which allowed me to stay a couple steps ahead of myself and of bonking.  For this race, I had brought six gels with me (though I knew that I would probably not use all of them), and by the time things were done, I had gone through close to four of them, had eaten part of 1 orange, part of 1 banana, and had drunk water and/or gatorade at almost every aid station.  I’m thrilled to say that I didn’t even really begin to feel tired until around mile 22, which was also when I started to post a couple 8:30s, but by then Matt (who was now my exclusive buddy, as we had lost Brooke somewhere around mile 20 or 21) and I were pretty much pulling each other along to “finish this thing.”

The IL Marathon also posted a vid online of their course, and I remembered the guy from the vid saying that the only significant hill of the course was at mile 24.  For the most part, he was right.  There was a smallish hill between miles 23-24, but the most significant for sure was right at mile 24, which was exactly where Pacer Rich caught up with Matt and me–great timing, to be sure.  Once we got to the top of mile 24 though, we were rewarded with a great flat strip, followed by a great downhill, which we were able to use to plow through from miles 25 onto home.  (To give you an idea, my penultimate mile was about a 7:50.  Just a couple miles before, I had posted a couple 8:30s.  Thank god for downhills).  Matt and I were trying for a 3:30, but once we had Pacer Rich catch up to us, we knew that we’d be closer to a 3:34/3:35, which was still good in my book.  Ultimately, Matt pulled just a few steps ahead of me, and he finished a few seconds before I posted my 3:34:05.

I still can’t believe it.

I keep checking active.com because I’m certain that there has been a mistake or something.

A 3:34 is chump change to some people, but to me, that’s practically a pipe dream.  My all-time marathon goal was a 3:33, and now I’m thinking that if I train well, I could post a 3:30 at NYC in November or at Houston in January.

After the race, of course my mommy hormones couldn’t keep me from crying because I was so happy–not only for myself but also for the other women in my group who also BQed for the first time, who hit PRs, or for people like Matt who had just completed their first marathon and totally OWNED it.

It’s crazy how emotional running can make me–thank you, endocannibinoids–but man, it was pretty fucking special.

It was a good day for a PR, a great day for  BQ, and all the high-fives and hugs and fistbumps afterward indicated as much.

A medal engraving vendor was at the finish line activities, so I opted to get my medal engraved in honor of Alice, since I was running on her due date.  If you watch my post-race vid, at the end you can see what it says (I won’t give it away here! :) ).

About a day has passed now, and I’m feeling well.  My quads are a bit sore, but that’s kinda it.  Maybe my hip flexors a little, too, but not too bad.  I start my foundations class at CrossFit this week, so I’ll just do some really light running this week just to shake things out, in addition to some chiropractic and massage work later this week.  I have to look at my training to see when I want to officially start training for NYC, but I imagine that it probably won’t be until June or July.  Until NYC, I’ll be doing a Madison-Chicago Ragnar relay, along with some summer races that are as yet to be determined.

Marathon #17?  Check and check. :)

Hanging out after the marathon... after I had just cried, haha. Total loser!!

Onward and upward!

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Almost here!

Serious backlog yet again… seemingly the story of my life, especially of late, between two weeks at my in-laws’, a week here, a week in Ohio, a week back here with a nasty sinus infection and an outpatient procedure, and alas, it’s race week all of a sudden!

Christie Clinic Illinois Marathon will be here in T minus three days now- holy moly!  The countdown is on!  Words can’t adequately express how stoked I am!  First marathon in a year and a half and, more importantly, first marathon post-A!  And to boot, Saturday (4/28) was my due date, so it’s kinda extra special :) :) :)

Race report and pics to follow…

And in the interim, two of my fav quotes about marathoning!

There is the truth about the marathon and very few of you have written the truth. Even if I explain to you, you’ll never understand it; you’re outside of it.
Douglas Wakiihuri speaking to journalists

We are different, in essence, from other men.   If you want to win something, run 100 meters.

If you want to experience something, run a marathon.

Emil Zatopek

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Tapered

It’s here.  Por fin.

  • 10×800 Yassos workout: check (last Wednesday).
  • last 20-miler of this training cycle: check (last Saturday).
  • 6×1 mile repeats workout: check (yesterday, here in Ohio).

Bring it on, taper.  I’ve been waiting.

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Mortality … RIP Micah True

Ed. note: This post has taken me about two weeks’ worth of pondering and several attempts at writing it.  I started it, and intended to post it, on Wednesday (April 4).

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Maybe any other time, I’d be ecstatic to write about my 10×800 Yassos today and tell you all my splits, how I felt after each one, and how thrilled I was with how well they went and how well I felt during them and afterward. There’s a time and a place for that post, so maybe I’ll return to it in a couple days.  Instead, I want to write about mortality.

Yeah, mortality.

And about how I’ve been thinking about the loss of someone I don’t even know, a person about whom I thought during my speedwork today.

I mourned a stranger’s death because it felt like the right thing to do.

One of the many reasons I run is because it reminds me of my own mortality.  I realize that I’m not guaranteed a single day, or even the next single moment, of my life, but oftentimes I, like many others, get caught up in the grind and the minutiae of day-to-day life and get more forward-thinking than present-moment-thinking.  Running helps to re-center and re-focus me and forces me to remember that I could be gone tomorrow, if not also even an hour from now.

It’s humbling to say the least.

I’m not sure what it is about running that makes me think of my pending death–maybe the exhaustion or the fierce effort or the sense of accomplishment–but at any rate, it’s one of the few things in my life that forces me to remember the reasons I run, to take stock of my life, and to not take anything for granted–including not only my actual ability to run but also my life, itself.

(This is actually why I only wear a watch when I run…. because at any other time, I feel like I’m literally watching seconds, minutes, and hours of my life tick away in front of me.  It’s a weird feeling.  At least when I wear a watch when I’m running, it is to serve a very specific function).

Another weird thing about my relationship with mortality is that I have been convinced since I was relatively young (high school-aged) that I’d die young.  Again, I don’t know why this is, or what compelled me to think this–I think I had a vision or something–but it is what it is.  Don’t get me wrong; don’t read this as a call for help or anything like that; but for whatever reason, I’m just convinced I’ll go out young.  I think my efforts to lead a healthy lifestyle via my vegetarianism and my running are some attempts to not only make me into a better human being but also, at least in some ways, to delay the inevitable.

Anyway.

Needless to say, me thinking about mortality in relation to my running isn’t something new.  It’s on my mind often, but it’s not something that I frequently articulate because generally speaking, people don’t like to talk about death.  Mortality and running has been even moreso on my mind since the past week, when I first learned about ultramarathoner Micah True’s disappearance and eventual death in New Mexico.  Though I didn’t know the man, I had read about him in Chris McDougall’s Born to Run a few years ago, and the character and persona of True was not easily forgettable.

It’s odd to say because again, I don’t know the man, I never met him, I know nothing about him besides what McDougall wrote, but when I first learned he had disappeared, my heart sank.  And days later, when I read he was gone, I, like so many others in the running community, was saddened.  I mourned his death yet, at the same time, was inspired by the life he led and the wonderful effects he has had on those around him, particularly those in the running community.

For naysayers, True’s death would be the perfect “in” to write about how running is dangerous, how you should never go out solo, how you should always tell people where you’re going, and all the other cautionary tales that inevitably arise when stuff like this happens, though from the sounds of it, authorities don’t think there was any foul play involved with True’s death.  Instead of harping on all the safety-focused and somewhat alarmist stuff, I’d rather write about how running, and by extension of that, my thinking about my mortality, makes me think often and deeply about what matters most in my life–my relationships.

Mark Remy over at Runner’s World did a great write-up about this a few days ago, basically saying what many of us fail to think about each time we run a race or just some miles (long or short) around our neighborhoods: that we might never make it back home.  It’s sobering to read something like that, especially if you haven’t thought about it in a while, but it’s true.

So true.

I’ve done races before where people have died in the process, and it’s scary as hell.  Hearing about it after the fact makes my heart break and shakes my soul.  Those runners laced up for what they thought would be another run, albeit special (because of its race status), and like Mark said, they probably were thinking about what they were going to do afterward, where they were going to have dinner, or whatever; I’d venture to say that they didn’t think “ya know, I might not make it home after this.  This could be it.”  It’s scary to think about… but also a good reminder to stay grounded in what matters most in our lives.

Brian Metzler also wrote a really great post about True’s death, and it sounds like Metzler articulated what so many in the running community are trying to do for themselves–to find peace and consolation in the fact that True went out doing what he loved to do and that he was a man who was grounded in his passions for all of his days, not just in his final moments.

For me, becoming a mother (eleven months ago today!) profoundly changed my life–as it should.  Any parent out there reading my stuff I’m sure can relate to my sentiment with how different life is once kids are in the picture, but man… I had no idea.  This almost-year has been full of great joys, sleepless nights, and so many proud moments of my A that sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve it.  Having an amazing husband is incredible in and of itself, but seeing our little girl and knowing that she’s half me–that I carried her for almost 41 weeks before I finally held her in my arms–and then watching her grow each day, from 7 pounds 10 oz. to over 21 pounds in the past eleven months, is just unreal.

Absolutely, incredibly unreal.

A, about fifteen minutes old here

Sometimes I think I'm raising a puppy, not an eleven-month-old baby.

When I’m running, besides thinking about my limited time in this world, I often think about my relationships–and in particular, my family.  I run for myself of course, but I also run for them–to set a positive example, to encourage them to be active, to make me a better person.  I finally bit the bullet and bought a running stroller, and I am very excited about taking A out with me on some of my runs.  At any rate, running has played a hugely significant role in my life, especially over the past five years, as has motherhood over the past year.

This was a Christmas gift from 2011. It does a pretty awesome job of explaining things. Disregard the typo; apparently, Cafe Free Press doesn't spell-check their merchandise

Today’s 10×800 Yassos workout, which will be one of my last two really hard speed sessions, I think went by much more easily than usual because of how I centered myself.  In the first part of my workout, I thought of Micah True–about all the stuff I’ve read about him in the past few days, about how fellow ultramarathoner Scott Jurek characterized the fifty-plus-year-old as “just a kid” and about True’s uninhibited love for the carnal sport of running (and trails and ultras, in particular).  I’m sure his spirit and essence will live on in the running community for years to come.  For as reserved a man as True was, his humanity sounds like it was anything but. I ran the first few 800s of today’s workout in his memory and honor, aspiring to become half the runner and person that True was in his abbreviated time here.

The other part of today’s workout I thought about A–about how she is almost a whole finger old (one year) now, about what motherhood has meant to me, and about how running and motherhood have been such significant life-changers for me.  I wrote about this when I was pregnant, and thinking about this all again, and re-reading what I wrote when I was pregnant, is almost unreal.  At this point in my training, I’m about to embark on my taper, eagerly anticipating the days until April 28, my first post-pregnancy marathon, and it is just unreal to think that since I last ran a marathon in late 2010, I’ve been pregnant, given birth, and basically started anew with my training… and have seemed to have gotten faster.  At any rate, suffice it to say that life has changed dramatically and profoundly for me since that last race.

This post is all over the place, despite the uncanny amount of time I’ve spent thinking about it and writing and re-writing it (which is somewhat unheard of me for me), but I guess I’ll end it with this.  It’s sobering, harrowing, and terrifying even to consider how precious life is and what relatively little time we have here, and for many people, myself included, though I know this is a fact, and while I, personally, think about my own mortality on a pretty frequent basis, there’s really nothing like having a tragedy like True’s untimely death force us to re-think our priorities, consider what matters most in our lives, and re-center ourselves accordingly.  True’s spirit will live on in all the runners he met over the years, as well as those who, like me, never met him but who read about him. I’m convinced running has made me a better person, a better mom, friend, wife, sister, everything, and I also think that one of its biggest roles it has played in my life is in its uncanny ability to remind me, time and again, of my limited time on this earth and how important it is to make my years and days here count.

RIP, Brother True.

 

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Emotions

Ah, emotions.

The end of last week was a mixed bag.  Friday’s “tempo” (note the air-quotes and the hedging here), which was only a little over 4 miles, went fairly well but was tiring–even though the “tempo” part of it (again, note the air-quotes and the hedging) was definitely not at a tempo pace.  Faster than MP but probably not even as fast as HMP.  I think I’m still on the mend from being ill, but I’m definitely on the upswing. Plus, to complicate matters, where I was running got me held up at a stop-light a couple times, and since I had auto-pause turned off on the Garmin, my calculated pace dropped bit by bit as I was waiting for clearance to go.  Once I finished the run, I felt discouraged, tired, kinda pissed that I wasn’t able to run as strongly as I wanted to, and a bit worried that I felt as tired and somewhat weak as I did.

It was one of those wonderful moments where Her Holiness Humility shows up, smacks me around a bit, and makes me remember that I’m not as invincible as I sometimes think I am.  She and her BFF, Sister Self-Doubt, often work together to make me question my training, my sleeping, my eating, basically anything and everything that could be a variable in my training and performance.

Her Holiness Humility and Sister Self-Doubt can go to hell.

Don’t get me wrong; I appreciate them and value them for what they do to me… but they can still go to hell.

Saturday’s long run back in the city, a nice cut-back 15 from last weekend’s 20, was great.  Another run with Jack along the best city in the world’s lakefront, from the northside down to Navy Pier and back.  God bless crazy midwestern temperatures though in late March because it was around the low 40s when we began at 7:30, so we saw tons of people sporting full-on winter running gear as well as those who decided to be a bit braver and go for summertime attire, like tanks and shorts.  Yours truly donned tights, a long sleeve, and a short sleeve, along with specs and a hat (of course, always the incognito runner), and it was more or less perfect.

Then finally, on Sunday, “recovery” was the name of the game– especially since last week was my biggest week of running in a couple weeks, thanks to good ol’ sinusitis.  I aimed for either an hour or 6 miles, whichever happened first, and I ended up with just a shade over 6.  I felt relaxed, my muscles were feeling much more springy than they were the day before (tight hip flexors on Saturday morning, probably resulting from a more sedentary lifestyle in Rockford than at home), and the weather was just a tad warmer, which probably lifted my spirits a bit more.

There’s a lot that goes on with running.  Clearly.  I wouldn’t write about it as often as I do if that weren’t the case.  Training for a marathon (or really, any race, I’d venture to say) takes up a healthy amount of time, to be sure, so the focus on the physical and the physiological elements to training are obvious.  What I’m asserting here that isn’t so obvious is the mental, psychological, spiritual, whatever you want to call it element that training has the power to do to a person.

I’ll own this and explain everything as it relates to me and my experiences.  For me, when I’m knee-deep into training (as I am now), I find that it really has the potential to cut to the core and essence and soul of my being and challenge me in ways that few other things in my life can.  There’s the obvious physiological and biological stuff going on here that is challenging, to be sure–people don’t just run 20 miles or 15 miles or whatever for the hell of it–but I’m also talking about what goes on mentally for me as I’m training.

Setting goals is such a huge part of running and training for me, and I often–very often–think about these goals when I’m on a run, no matter if it’s an ass-kicking speedwork session, a maintenance or recovery run, or a long run on a Saturday. I’ve written before that probably a big part of the reason that I get so much out of running is because of how easily it lends itself to goal-setting and performance enhancement.  I know there will come a time when I will plateau and the PRs will be more or less set in stone, but I don’t think I’m there yet.

And besides, if every time I set out for a run I was aiming for a PR, I’d be disappointed 99.9% of the time.

That’s just the way it goes.

Fortunately, PRs aren’t the only reason I run.

Training and attempting to reach toward the goals that I set for myself teaches me perseverance, tenacity, patience, and the value of a high and hard work ethic.  I can’t expect to reap what I don’t sow; I can’t run a 3:35 or a 1:30 or whatever meaningless and arbitrary time goal I set (meaningless and arbitrary in the grand scheme of things) if I don’t put in the leg work (pun intended) to make that happen.

To some degree, running and training is about suffering, and for me at least, there is so little suffering in my immediate world and existence that I find that it’s actually pretty easy to lose sight of things and take things (and people) for granted, including my ability to run in the first place.

Fairly recently, I read about this great cartoon that featured ultramarathon legend Dean Karnazes and explained his story and outlook on running.  I totally, 100% feel the same way.  What running does for me, among other things, is re-connect me with the world and with other people–my friends, my family, even perfect strangers.

It makes me a better person because it grounds me, and (maybe due to the endocannibinoids- helllllllllllllllllo, runner’s high!) it just makes me a better person to be around in general.  It makes me more giving, more generous, more empathetic because it is one of the few things in the world that connects humanity together with each other and with our ancestors.

Running is both primal and contemporary, ancient and relevant, and it’s egalitarian.  It doesn’t matter who you are, where you live, what you own (or don’t), or what you did earlier in the day or what you’re going to do later in the evening; what only matters is showing up and putting your pound down on the pavement and giving it all you’ve got.

It’s hard to tell exactly why I’m waxing philosophic about this tonight, especially when I have a somewhat lengthy list of other stuff that I want to write about, but I guess I can blame it on Her Holiness and her BFF.  Running can lift me up of course, but sometimes it also smacks me down (a la Her Holiness and her BFF, Sister SD).  At the end of the day, though, that’s what it’s good for.

Balance.

In life and on the roads.

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T minus one-month… or so I thought

As I was feeding almost 11-month-old A breakfast this morning, we had a little conversation about how today was March 28, which meant that a month from today, Mommy would be running her 17th marathon (and the first marathon since giving birth to A), the Christie Clinic Illinois Marathon in Champaign and Urbana, IL.

We also talked about how a month from now, but one year ago, she was due, but how she came six days late–almost a whole week!–because she was still getting her “finishing touches” put on.  It was a riveting and reminiscing conversation!

 

A and me

The conversation was great and everything (one-sided as it is, anyway), until about 5pm this evening when I realized that today’s March 29, not March 28! 

Yikes!

This is significant not only because I everything I told A was faulty but, more meaningful to the purposes of this blog, that means I HAVE LESS THAN A MONTH UNTIL MY MARATHON! 

!!!!!!

The excitement and nervousness and anxiety should be palpable for you, loyal and dear reader.

I can’t believe that we’re already this close–probably because we didn’t have much of a winter, so the training this time around hasn’t been as gruelling as it usually is–but man.

Holy smokes.

For as much as I’ve already run, and for as many huge accomplishments I’ve already set (helllloooooo, January 2012, the PR season to remember in the half marathon!), I still feel like I have a lot left to do… and a lot of improvement yet to make.

I guess this is part of what keeps me coming back to running and marathon training year after year, season after season, event after event: the constant pull to improve, to see what more I can do with my body, to see what else I can learn and apply to my training and lifestyle.

In subsequent posts, I’ll detail what I think are my race goals and race plan, as well as my racing calendar for 2012.  Now that I’m fairly confident my family and I won’t be trekking cross-country to begin life anew in northern California, I can finalize some of my racing intentions for the rest of the year.

In the interim, though, I’ll concentrate on finishing out this training cycle super strong for the Christie Clinic Illinois Marathon on 4/28, including one last 20 in a couple weeks, another good miles-repeat workout (I think I’m up to 6 or so, but I need to look at my notes), and another round of Yassos (I think I’m around 8 or 9 here, too).  Thus, while the calendar says I’ve only got a few short weeks left until this race, my training sched says that there is still work to be done… and how.

Onward and upward!

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WDYDT: 6.11 “maintenance,” but mostly counting

A couple posts back, I wrote about how Coach Jack Daniels (and others) have written about how important turnover is in an athlete’s speed.  Daniels maintains that 180 strikes/minute is the ideal number that will let athletes gain speed but not at the expense of making them think too much or unduly change-up their running form.

That said, on this morning’s 6.11 (I like the random numbers, what can I say!?), which wasn’t really anything besides a maintenance run following Tuesday’s speedish run and in advance of tomorrow’s tempo, for the second part of my run I counted.  And counted.  And counted.  And attempted to do some mental math (not my strong suit, but I managed).

For the record, it is way easier to count armswings than it is to count the number of times my foot hits the pavement.

How’d I fare?  Well, from the about 5 times I did counted, the numbers ranged from around 94 to about 100.

Honestly, I haven’t done this (counted) since 2008, at least from what I can remember.

And really, I don’t know that I even counted correctly, since I was only counting right arm-armswings (because again, counting armswings is way easier than counting footsteps).

When I did a little interwebs research about this just now, it seems like my values are either a) at maximal efficiency (which seems hard to believe because I wasn’t going much faster than MP this morning) or b) could stand to see some improvement.  I’ll tell myself that the latter is the truth.

In the quest of self-improvement…. because we all know I will probably start counting my armswings and footsteps prolifically now… I happened upon an AWESOME site by a vegan athlete (I’m in love!), Matt Frazier, who also has some great instructions as to how to make your cadence quicker and lighter.  While I’m not a fan of the dreadmill, I think next time I have the opportunity to, I’ll hop on a high school track to give his recommendations a try.  Thanks, Matt!

So what’s the rest of the week hold?  Probably about a 4mile tempo tomorrow, 15 on Saturday, and an hour (or so) easy recovery on Sunday.

It’s looming, folks!

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